“You can’t go back and change the beginning
but you can start where you are and change the ending.”
– C.S. Lewis
I’ve morphed a whole lot in the last few years. I’ve fought change, and tried to be something I’m not to make others proud. In a sense I lost myself to find myself. It’s been hard. From 23 to 26 years old, I went through an awkward period of not having any earthly idea what I wanted to do. I love blogging and IG, but I also wanted to have more stability with income and the perks that other jobs have *cough cough insurance. I’ve gone from writing research papers and thinking I was going to get a PhD to realizing that I love skincare and beauty- something I never thought could be a career for me.
They say if you love what you do, you never work a day in your life. But that’s just some far out dream, right? I figured I’d end up in a job that was okay, while counting the days until 5pm on Friday. I didn’t seem to be passionate about any one thing, so thought I’d settle like most people do. Turns out I was overlooking the obvious. After I took time off from school this semester, I went to therapy, reflected, and went to therapy some more. Questions I asked myself: What was my purpose? What did I love? What was I passionate about? How could I tie everything I’ve learned from blogging, photography, and IG?
You see, I don’t want to be another blogger sharing their skincare routine. That’s great and all, but each person’s skin is SO different. I want to be knowledgable about all things skincare and be able to answer questions as an expert, not just as an “influencer”.
Soooo! A few months ago I decided I want to get my esthetician’s license. And not just that, I want to be an aesthetician. This means that I specialize on more of the medical aspect of skincare and will learn to analyze skin through a variety of techniques and with lots of cool machines. Aesthetics is also less of a spa setting.
In January, I began touring schools to learn more about the field and see if it was the right choice for me. I started in NYC and ended up registering to start, but nothing felt right. I decided to wait it out, something I’m not very good at. But since I think I know what I want to do, there’s no huge rush.
When we had Dallas on our radar as a place to move, I went ahead and started researching schools. The admissions rep at the first school encouraged me to look at multiple schools, so I visited a few different ones. She said, “when you walk in, you’ll feel it. You’ll just know.” TBH, I waited and waited and felt nothing from any school I toured. Even in New York, there wasn’t a “perfect fit”.
Then I walked into Dallas Skin Institute and fell in love. There was an instant connection with the staff and the environment. It’s more of a boutique school that’s bright and trendy- a place I’d love coming to learn every day. Best of all, they focus on aesthetics and not just esthetics. I’m not exactly sure when I’ll start the program. I’m learning how to stop setting things in stone and trying to have a perfect plan for my life (that doesn’t exist btw), in order to allow for change, because change is a wonderful thing. But, I have the opportunity to get my feet wet in May by taking a microblading class at DSI. People come from all over the country to take their class, so I am beyond excited. After all, my eyebrows are microbladed, and I LOVE it. It’ll also be cool to transform someone else’s brows. I kind of can’t wait.
If you’re reading this and from California, Dallas Skin Institute is opening up another location in Santa Monica! Their founder, Patsy (who is BEAUTIFUL) started the school 17 years ago and is an expert in the field. She’s a female entrepreneur power house and someone I admire. I can’t wait to learn from her.
Whatever season you’re in, know you are exactly where you need to be. No matter how long it takes, or how long you’re there. Be thankful for the growth, the change, the craziness, the confusion, the good and the bad. Because girl, without it, you won’t get where you’re going.
If you ever need to talk, or feel like you’re going through a hard time that know one else understands…I’m a DM away.